magic words

So what is the unsaid that needs to be said? or the already said that needs to be said again?

I don't know...

I really don't know.

My heart aches. My mind is not my own. I am lost in a sea of confusion.

Is it the details? Is it the words? 

Yes, it is the words that keep me prisoner...
                And I hate words.
                                Words  kill, words maim, words lie, words mislead...

But unless I speak the "magic" words I will remain trapped in my silence. 

Trapped in the past. 

Trapped in old patterns.

And still I don't know what the magic words are.